First of all, I wanted to thank you all for having me here today. Not that I was coerced in any way by anyone you know and love. I really am happy to be here, and I don’t care how the opportunity came to be. That’s forgiveness right there.


I also wanted to mention one of your best ambassadors, Carolyn Law, because she holds a special place in my heart. She gave up a huge chunk of her life last May and June to journey with me through my discernment process. It seems only fair and right that I would come to her turf to offer my first post-discernment sermon!  


Let us pray.

Gracious God,

Grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change;

the courage to change the things we can change;

and the wisdom to know one from the other. Amen.


As I plowed through commentaries and explanations about this gospel reading many of which started out with, “This is an impossible reading to talk about and Jesus never speaks more harshly than his words to Peter.” Furthermore, we hear tough words about pain and suffering, and it was clear to me the best route would be a sweet sermon on the lovely reading from Romans!


But no, preach the Gospel.


So reading the words and now hearing the words read, “Those who want to save their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake will find it” had me recalling the writings on the wall of the accounting firm where I worked for 13 years. Now, I am not referring to the handwriting on the wall. We had actual writings on our walls. When we entered from the employee parking area, the first writing we saw as we entered and the last we saw as we exited was, “Be the change you seek in the world.” Then on another wall that was down the hall as we approached the breakroom for coffee, which we did numerous times during the day, we saw the reading, that said, “The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.” 


That paradox rang true to me this week.  


Those words never failed to make us pause and think, even when we weren’t totally feeling it. There were long, hard days at the end of tax seasons. Sometimes the “service of others” part seemed overwhelming as we got near the finish line.


We are often challenged to be followers of Jesus and to identify Christ at work in our lives and in the world. It can be hard to recognize Jesus even when he stands right in front of us. Maybe we even doubt who Jesus is, like Peter did when he tried to walk on the water.  This passage marks a turning point in the story. We’re now hearing Jesus speak of the journey to Jerusalem where there will be suffering and death—his own. 


The disciples have witnessed real miracles that they know point straight to God and the certain divinity of Jesus. They are distressed that Jesus was not turning out to be the Messiah they thought he would be, that he could conquer anything. Peter, especially, figured there must be a work around to the suffering and death Jesus described. This was not the future Peter envisioned for Jesus, or for himself as a follower. It is no wonder Peter cried out as he did and got himself crossways with Jesus. Peter did not want Jesus to die. He did not want his life and all that it meant for God’s people to be wasted.


Barbara Brown Taylor offers these words: “The deep secret of Jesus’ hard words to us is that our fear of suffering and death robs us of life, because fear of death always turns into fear of life, into a stingy cautious way of living that is not living at all. The deep secret of Jesus’ hard words is that the way to have abundant life is not to save it, but to spend it, to give it away, because life cannot be shut up and saved.”


Peter’s fear of death, I think a basic fear we all have to some extent if we are being honest, may well be what Jesus meant when he tells Peter that he is “concerned with human things.” We all will eventually face death—death from illness, age or even other kinds of death like the death or near death of a church through circumstances we never even have imagined. And like Peter, we often miss the point Jesus is making—that we must die in order to live. Giving up our lives is the way we gain the life to which Christ calls us.  Another more confusing paradox…


Like Peter, we think we have a good idea of what following Jesus should look like, but it is often grounded in things of this world, not the things of God’s kingdom. Our limited human view prevents us from seeing the bigger picture of God’s grace extended to all of God’s people—all meaning all, not just the ones we approve of or like the best, not necessarily the ones who look like us or pray like us, or live like us. Or to use a phrase Paula shared with me some years ago, I have a gush of denominational pride to be a part of a church that welcomes everyone with “no exceptions” and means it.


So here’s the tension—we don’t always see how our actions and words, based on our limited view, impact others. We can’t see the hurt we cause or the doors we close. We cannot see how not bearing our cross can make another’s cross heavier. But, bearing our cross is exactly what Jesus calls us to do. We are not talking about the little inconveniences we jokingly refer to as ‘our cross to bear.’ We are called to real sacrifice of our selves—and as stated in the Book of Common Prayer Rite I, “We offer and present unto thee our souls and bodies to be reasonable holy and living sacrifice unto thee.” We fully surrender and through that act, we find complete freedom. We become free to be the holy people God has created us to be and intends for us to be. 


Living into this tension, this paradox of giving up our lives to find them, is where Jesus meets us and calls us to new life. It might be a call to repentance --  to turn away from things of the world that distract and detract and turn toward a new direction fully trusting in God as we put one foot in front of the other.


Life requires risk. We have to walk out the door and face risk. We cannot have love without risking heartbreak, we cannot have friendship without the risk of rejection, so what do we do? We walk out into the crowd where we might bump into someone carrying a cross like ours or a different one-- it matters not. We are invited to follow and the path does not avoid death, it goes right through it. Right through our fears and worries. It may not be an easy road and we risk it all -- just like God risked becoming human and walking with us to give us life.


“…For those who want to save their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake, will find it.”


It sounds crazy. And perhaps it is. But whoever said that following Jesus would make sense? AMEN.

 

 

 

 

 

By Paula Jefferson March 16, 2026
By Paula Jefferson March 8, 2026
In 2017, I visited Jacob's Well. We stood in a circle and read today’s Gospel text. John tells us what happened when the women encountered Jesus. But, as I worked with the text this week, I wondered what the story might sound like if it was told by the woman, rather than a narrator. So imagine, for a moment, that she is the one telling the story. As you listen, notice the conversation is like a chess match—each question invites the conversation to deepen. I did not go to the well that day looking for God. I went because the jar was empty. You know how life is. Morning comes, the sun climbs higher than you expect, and before long the ordinary tasks are piling up: Bread to bake; Water to draw. Work that does not ask what kind of person you are—it simply asks to be done. So I took my jar and walked the familiar road to Jacob’s well. It was the middle of the day. No shade, no breeze. I preferred it that way. If you go early in the morning, everyone is there. The conversations begin before the bucket even touches the water. People talk about crops, about marriages, about children. And sometimes about other people’s lives. My life has been the subject of those conversations. So, I go at noon. Alone. But that day there was a man sitting beside the well. At first, I thought he must be a traveler resting his feet. The dust on his robe said he had come a long way. But when I looked more closely, I saw something else. He was a Judean. Now you have to understand something about that. Judeans and Samaritans do not usually share wells, cups, or conversations. We have our mountain, they have their temple, and between those two places lies a long history of arguments. So I lowered my eyes and went about my work. If I kept quiet, perhaps he would too. But then he spoke. “Give me a drink.” I looked up. Surely, I had misunderstood. “You are a Judean,” I said, “and I am a woman of Samaria. How is it that you ask me for a drink?” He did not apologize. He did not withdraw the request. Instead, he said something even more strange. “If you knew the gift of God,” he said, “and who it is that is saying to you, ‘Give me a drink,’ you would have asked him, and he would have given you living water.” Now I have drawn water from that well since I was a kid. My parents did. My grandparents did. The well is deep, and the water is good, but no one draws it without a rope and a jar. I looked at his empty hands. “Sir, you have no bucket, and the well is deep. Where do you get this living water? Are you greater than our ancestor Jacob, who gave us the well?” He did not laugh at my question. “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again. But those who drink the water I give will never thirst. The water I give will become a spring inside you, giving eternal life.” A spring inside me? That was a bold claim. And if it was true, it would change everything. “Sir, give me this water, so that I may never be thirsty or have to keep coming here to draw water.” Then he did something unexpected. He said, “Go call your husband.” Now that is the moment when most people begin telling my story as if it were only about my past. I answered him honestly. “I have no husband.” And he looked at me—not the way people in town look when they think they already know who you are. He looked at me as if he could see the whole of my life at once. “You are right,” he said. “You have had five husbands, and the one you have now is not your husband.” He said it plainly. No accusation. Just truth. This man knew my story. All of it. And yet he was still speaking to me. “Sir, I see that you are a prophet.” And if he was a prophet, then there was a question I had always wondered about: “Our ancestors worshiped on this mountain,” I said, “But you Judeans say that the place where people must worship is in Jerusalem.” I still don’t fully understand his answer. But I remember the way he said it—as if the world we thought we understood was already passing away: “The hour is coming,” he said, “when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. The true worshipers will worship in spirit and truth.” Not here. Not there. Something larger. I thought of the promise our people had always carried. “I know that Messiah is coming,” I told him. “When he comes, he will proclaim all things to us.” And then he said it. “I am he.” Right there beside the well….in the middle of my ordinary day. In that moment the world shifted. The God our ancestors argued about on mountains and in temples was not far away at all. He was sitting beside me, asking for a drink. About that time his disciples came back from town. They looked surprised to see him talking to me, though none of them said a word. But by then I had forgotten why I came. Somewhere beside the well my jar was still sitting on the ground. Because suddenly the water I came for no longer seemed like the most important thing in the world. I ran back to town….to the same people who gossiped about me. “Come and see a man who told me everything I have ever done! Can he be the Messiah?” They came. Many believed because of my testimony. But later they said something even better. “It is no longer because of your testimony that we believe,” they told me. “Now we have heard for ourselves.” And that is how encounter works. You come to the well carrying whatever jar life has given you—your history, your reputation, the ordinary work of your days, the burdens that seem overwhelming… And Christ meets you there. He speaks your truth. He offers living water. And before you know it, the jar that once defined your life is sitting forgotten beside the well. Because the water you were looking for is no longer something you carry in your hands. It has become a spring within you. God is alive. God is among us. God is here. God is now. Come and see.
By Melanie Kingsbury March 1, 2026
By Paula Jefferson February 22, 2026
February 15, 2026
The Feast of the Transfiguration is August 6th of each year. The Transfiguration is also celebrated each year on the Last Sunday After the Epiphany as the culmination of a series of events in which Jesus is manifested as the Anointed One, the Messiah, the Son of God. And that is fitting, for it is indeed an epiphany, a manifestation or showing forth of God in Christ. It is, perhaps, the most vivid such manifestation in the Gospels, at least prior to the Resurrection. Indeed, it seems to be a prefiguration, or a foretaste, of the resurrection appearances, and even a foretaste of the more direct vision of God that we hope to enjoy for all eternity when, as St. Paul tells us, we shall see him not as through a glass, darkly, but face to face. It must have been quite an experience for Peter, James, and John; one that they would never forget. In fact, Peter refers to it in the passage we read in today's Epistle. Very likely it's a story Peter often told to the early Christians. It was really something to see Jesus talking with those long-dead heroes of the faith, Moses and Elijah. Did you ever stop to wonder how they knew it was Moses and Elijah? How could they have known, except that God must have inspired them with this knowledge. But then, seeing Moses and Elijah wouldn't have been half as awesome as seeing the transfigured Jesus Christ – someone they knew well, with whom they had traveled and shared meals and conversed day after day. No wonder we are told that Peter didn't know what he was saying! And then a cloud came and overshadowed them, and they heard the voice of God: “This is my Son, the Beloved; with him I am well pleased; listen to him!” Well! There couldn't have been a clearer manifestation, a clearer statement from God of just who Jesus was. “This is my Son, the Beloved.” Just in case they hadn't understood this before, God makes it perfectly clear. Let's focus now on what God said next: “Listen to him!” Our NRSV translation has an exclamation point after that sentence – as well it should. These three words could form the basis for numerous sermons and countless meditations. Listen to him. We can't go wrong if we just listen to Jesus. We would do well to make these words our focus: “Listen to him!” How do we do that? Does Jesus still speak to us? When and where does Jesus speak to us? There are probably a lot of answers to that question, but here are just a few. Jesus speaks to us in the words of Holy Scripture, and especially in the words of the four Gospels, which tell us about his life and teachings. Spending a little time each day with our Bibles – reading, praying, and thinking about what Jesus is saying to us in these words – will certainly contribute a great deal toward our ability to “listen to him,” to hear his voice. We are fortunate to belong to a Christian tradition that encourages us to search the Scriptures for meaning and that embraces the possibility that there may be many different meanings for a passage from the Bible. We should take advantage of that freedom and open ourselves to the possibility of transfiguration. Jesus also speaks to us through other people. Our Christian friends have much to say that can inspire us. That’s why we study in groups and worship in groups and often carry out our ministries in groups. Jesus also calls to us through people who are in need. He said, “Whatever you do for the least of these my brothers and sisters, you do unto me.” He also says whatever we don’t do for them, we don’t do for him. We can help in many ways but God sends people into our lives each day. The child in the detention center, the woman who was abused as a child, the veteran struggling with PTSD, those who rely on 4Saints & Friends Food Pantry, families whose hearts are made glad by Laundry Love, those suffering from leprosy who are cared for and fed because of Hopewallah. The “least of these” might be one who says, “I was down in the dumps and you smiled at me?” I had the privilege of serving as Interim Rector at St. John’s Church in Jackson Hole, Wyoming. St. John’s Church owns about an acre of land in Grand Teton National Park and on it sits The Chapel of the Transfiguration. Gay was commissioned to write an icon to be displayed on the wall of the chapel. She had several patterns she was considering. I took the examples with me to the weekday Eucharist on day and asked Lou, one of our regular attendees at that service, which one she liked best. She looked at them and pointed to one with some enthusiasm. “That one!” she said. “What is it about that one?” I asked. She said, “In that one, Jesus and the disciples are not only ascending the mountain, they are also coming down.” I told Gay and that is the pattern she used. You see, Lou’s husband was a mountain climber. He ascended Mt. Everist with Jim Whitaker. But he didn’t come down. He lost his life there. For Lou, it was very personal and very important to remember that Jesus, Peter, James, and John came down, came back, continued on their journey. Jesus spoke to Gay and me through Lou! And here's one more way that we might hear Jesus speaking to us: in the silence. Do you remember the story of Elijah waiting for God in the cave? “Now there was a great wind, so strong that it was splitting mountains and breaking rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind; and after the wind was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a sound of sheer silence.” What kind of a sound does sheer silence make? I think we all remember an earlier translation that said: “a still small voice.” We know what that sounds like, don't we? And perhaps it is the same thing, because it is all too easy to drown out that still small voice with wind and earthquake and fire and the like. Maybe we need to tune out and turn off before we can begin to listen. Turn off the TV for a while, sign off on the Internet, and, most of all, tune out the internal noise that is the hardest of all to still. To put it bluntly, we need to shut up once in a while, even in our prayers. The kind of prayer where we talk to God and tell him about our life and how it is going and the things we are worried about and so forth, is good, but there comes a time when we need to stop even doing that, and just listen. Is it possible to sit still and listen for five minutes? Then do that. Then maybe you can go for10 or 15 or even 20 minutes. If the internal noise starts up again, bring yourself back to the silence with some small word like “Listen” or just “Jesus.” What sound will you hear in the silence? When our ears are opened to listen for the divine voice, what we hear may be an epiphany we ne.  The Holy Spirit is actively at work in the world, our SaviorJesus Christ is with us every moment, until the end of the ages, just as he promised he would be. We must simply take the time to listen, and to look for the one who is the light of the world, the one whose light we shall one day see face to face. As St. Peter tells us in today's reading: “You will do well to be attentive to this as to a lamp shining in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts.” Amen 1
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