Paula, a little over four years ago, we gathered in the Nave of the Church of St. Martin-in-the-Fields to ordain you a Priest. Because of the pandemic, only a handful of worshipers were present. I had the honor of serving as Preacher for that service. I’ll never forget the neck-snapping reaction of Bishop Mayer when I cited Jerry Garcia’s summary of the feelings just about everyone God has ever called. Jerry said, “Somebody has to do something. It is a pathetic thing that it has to be us.”

 

That sermon was mostly about your vocation and the work of a Priest. Today, since you have again honored me again and invited me to preach, I want to take that thought to another level and focus on the ministry you share with those given into your care. The readings appointed for the celebration of your ministry as Vicar of St. Christopher’s call for that.

 

In the record of God’s Commission to Joshua, his adherence to God’s call and God’s ways are intended to advance God’s purpose for God’s people as they prepare to enter a new era in a new land with a new leader. It should not surprise us that God chose Joshua to succeed Moses. When God commanded Moses to enter the promised land, Moses sent out 12 spies on a recognizance mission. When the spies returned, ten of them reported that the land was indeed fruitful but that the people were big and strong, and their cities were well fortified. Joshua and Caleb gave the minority report and urged the people to do as God had commanded. The people said the report of the ten had discouraged their hearts. Moses bent to the people’s lack of faith and faltered in his leadership. As a result, Moses and an entire generation wandered in the wilderness until they died. Of that generation, only Joshua and Caleb were allowed to enter the promise. And God called Joshua to lead them when the time came.

 

God’s call to Joshua was not to be a nice guy. God’s call to Joshua was a lead the people. For that purpose and for the sake of the people, God equipped and commissioned Joshua. The same God still has a purpose for us and this particular people has a Vicar whom God has equipped and commissioned to lead them in God’s mission. It may be a pathetic thing that it has to be you, Paula, but today we whole-heartedly agree with God that it is you. So, “Be strong and courageous; do not be frightened or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

 

In his letter to the Ephesians, St. Paul expands upon the work of the leader of a faith community. He writes, “The gifts he gave were that some would be apostles, some prophets, some evangelists, some pastors and teachers, to equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ. (Ephesians 4:11-12)” Sadly for the Church, some of our colleagues and some of our laity think the leader’s role is to do the work of ministry themselves rather than to equip the saints to do it. It’s also sad for the clergy who understand their role in that way because they miss the joy of seeing the fruit born of the collaborative labor of God’s Spirit-filled people.


For me, that has been the greatest reward of ordained ministry. Sometimes, I feel like John Hannibal Smith, the character played by George Peppard in the TV series The A-Team. The series ran for 98 episodes in five seasons. In every episode, toward the completion of their mission, Hannibal would chomp down on his cigar, look into the camera, and say, “I love it when a plan comes together.” I do! I love it when, with a little bit or a lot of guidance from me, the People of God develop a plan, execute the plan, and experience the satisfaction of seeing it come together for the glory of God and the sake of those who need it. It is especially gratifying when everybody knows going into it that we’re not entirely sure we have what it takes to accomplish what God is calling us to do. Like in the Baptismal Covenant when we are asked, “Will you…” and the answer is not, “Yes” but instead, “I will, with God’s help.” After all, God never calls us to do holy work by ourselves. It may be a pathetic thing that it has to be you and the people of St. Christopher’s, Paula, but today we whole-heartedly agree with God that it is. So, “Be strong and courageous; do not be frightened or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

 

According to the teachings of our Church, there is no such thing as a solitary Christian. God’s primary call is to faithful living in communion with others. We are on a journey and a journey is always better when it is shared with others. As we travel together, we grow in our experience of God. We learn to trust God. We learn to be loved by God and thus to love others whom God loves. Perhaps that is why St. Christopher’s logo includes the invitation, “Walk with us.”

 

Our Gospel reading recounts a portion of the story of Jesus sending out “the seventy” in their mission. I encourage you to read the entire chapter when you have a few moments. Several things strike me about the seventy and the story they told upon their return. 

 

Firstly, they are not sent out alone. Jesus sent them out in pairs. Maybe workers are more diligent and accountable in pairs. Often, we are safer, less vulnerable, when we have someone with whom to travel. There is wisdom in sending pairs with diverse gifts. Perhaps the mission of the wider Church today would be better served by seeing how we can “pair” ourselves in ministry and in mission.

 

Secondly, the seventy are likely not trained religious leaders. The seventy embody God's reign, with the many accompanying signs and wonders helping them to reveal it. The sharing of God's peace, the curing of the sick, the casting out of demons are all signs of the breaking in of God's future reign into our present world and reality. All of us are called to this ministry, and we carry it out in any number of ways.

 

Thirdly, the seventy are wildly successful, or so they think. They come back amazed. But Jesus is not surprized. He knows that they will do these things and more. But he also knows that it is not the seventy that do these things. It is the work of the Holy Spirit. It is not about us. It is always about God and what God is up to. That God chooses to use flawed, fallible human beings as witnesses to God's reign is testimony to God's power, God's vulnerability, and the risks God takes for the sake of the world God loves. It may be a pathetic thing, but in God’s administrative policy, it has to be us.

 

This installation is another moment of transition for all of us gathered here. My ministry during the past decade or so has been leading churches through transitions in leadership. One of the things I have learned is that all churches are in some kind of transition most of the time. Sometimes, those transitions are wonderful and sometimes they are horrible. Sometimes the transitions are transformative and sometimes they are traumatic. In every case, it seems to me that we are called together to engage in a continuous missionary enterprise in which we and others can find the way into the life of God.

 

In Anne Lamott’s book Traveling Mercies, she tells the story of a little girl who decided one day she was going to see what’s out there in the world. She went downtown and saw the lights and heard the horns blaring and all the people. She was amazed by it all until she realized she didn’t know how to get home. A police officer drove up and saw her, and said, “Are you all right?” She said, “I’m lost, and I don’t know how to get back home.” He said, “Get in and we’ll drive around and see if you see anything that looks familiar.” So, he drove her around until suddenly she cried out, “Stop! There’s my church. I can always find my way home from there.”

 

The people of St. Christopher’s underwent the trauma of being tossed out of your church building not so long ago. But God gave you the grace to turn your scars into stars. You were welcomed and given a place to gather by St. Matthew’s. The Episcopal Church stood alongside you. Paula was sent to you. In response to your request, Bishop Doyle has made her your Vicar. He has sent Bishop Seage to provide even more oversight and support in the work you are called to do. You have become a stronger and even more outward-focused community. And you have learned that the Church is not a building but a beacon, a light-bearing people helping others find the way to all the things that mean “home.” So, people of St. Christopher’s and Paula your Vicar, our prayer for you today is that you may continue that journey together, learning from the past, embracing the present, reaching in hope for what lies ahead, and with each step proclaiming the nearness of God’s reign.

 

Our theologian du jour Jerry Garcia once said, “If you’re able to enjoy something, to devote your life to it or a reasonable amount of time and energy, it will work out for you.” Or, as God said to Joshua at his installation as Vicar of the Israelites, “Be strong and courageous; do not be frightened or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” For that, we are grateful.


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Once when a certain preacher launched into a children’s sermon, she was confronted by a visiting child, an eight-year-old friend of a regular member. The boy was new to this church but was a regular attendee at another congregation that did not have children’s sermons. Nevertheless, the visitor tried his best to follow the line of the preacher’s effort to connect with the children. Attempting to hook the children with something familiar before making her point, the priest asked the children to identify what she would describe. “What is fuzzy and has a long tail?” No response. “What has big teeth and climbs in trees?” Still no response. After she asked, “What jumps around a lot and gathers nuts and hides them?” the visiting boy could stand the silence no longer. He blurted out, “Look, lady, I know the answer is supposed to be ‘Jesus,’ but it sure sounds like a squirrel to me.” Today’s Gospel reveals to us St. Thomas – who was put in a situation similar to that of the boy at the children’s sermon. Thomas was the one who had not seen the risen Jesus when he first appeared to the disciples. The others told him they had seen the Lord, but he was skeptical. He doubted. Still, Thomas must have wanted to fit in. He might have said, “Look, friends, I know the answer is supposed to be that I acknowledge that you saw Jesus, but it sure sounds like a ghost to me.” Aren't we all a little like Thomas? Thank God for that! Because, as Elton Trueblood once said, “a faith that is never questioned isn't worth having.” Thomas remained with the others until his doubts and uncertainties were transformed into a dynamic faith. Doubt is a universal human experience. We have all felt the pain, the harassment, and the threat of it. Doubt comes in different depths. The deepest form denies that we can believe anything at all. The other extreme is the mind of the dogmatic that sails along with unquestioning confidence on a sea of tranquil certitude. While there is a certain appeal in dogmatic tranquility, there is also the danger that we might overlook the possibility of error in our most familiar beliefs. As much as we might like to think of eliminating any trace of doubt in our life, the truth is that it would be undesirable, even if it were possible. When someone tells me that he has never had a moment of probing religious doubt, I find myself wondering whether that person has ever known a moment of vital religious conviction. For if one fact stands out above all others in the history of religion, it is this: the price of a great faith is a great and continuous struggle to get it, to keep it, and to share it. Faith is a fight as well as a peace. I find myself thinking of my task as a Pastor and Teacher in the way described by Paul Tillich, when he said, “Sometimes I think my mission is to bring faith to the faithless and doubt to the faithful.” Tuesday of this week is the annual remembrance of the Holocaust, Yom Hashoah. As we recall that tragic chapter in human history, we are painfully reminded of Adolf Hitler. Hitler was an atheist. We usually think of atheism as ultimate doubt. But when you think of it as a religion, you can see how helpful it would be to have a system of doubt to correct it. Hitler had no religion to cast doubts on his approach to life. But there are other problems besides Hitler's form of atheism. There is, for example, practical atheism. Practical atheists believe in God. He just doesn't have anything to do with their lives. Martin Luther once wrote, “There is the person who has never doubted that God is, but who lives as though God were not; and there is the person who doubts whether God is, or even denies that God is, but lives as though God were. In the latter, the grace of God is at work.” Look at the lives of the saints. According to holy legend, doubt appears as a temptation which increases in power with the increase of saintliness. In those who rest on their unshakable faith, pharisaism, fundamentalism, and fanaticism are the unmistakable symptoms of doubt which has been repressed. Doubt is overcome not by repression but by courage. Courage does not deny that there is doubt, but it takes the doubt into itself as an expression of its own finitude and affirms the content of an ultimate concern – a concern that impacts our lives and how we relate to the world around us and the people in it. Courage does not need the safety of unquestionable conviction. It includes the risk without which no creative life is possible. The Christian faith is stronger than our doubts. It is like the Chinese proverb, which says, “Chinese sails, though full of holes, still work.” Suppose a half dozen of us were seated around the walls of a darkened room. We are told that somewhere in the open, middle space, there is a chair. It is not just any chair; it is an antique, the creation of a noted designer, worth several thousand dollars. Which of us will find that chair? Certainly not those who sit still and philosophize about where the chair might be placed, about its existence, or about its value. No, the chair can be found only by those who have the courage to get up and risk stumbling around in the dark, using whatever powers of reason and sensation we might have until the chair is discovered. Or in our relationships with those we love. I have faith that my wife loves me. I feel her kindness, her caring, her loving touch - all these I interpret to mean that she loves me. Not every moment of our relationship has been perfectly romantic. We went to high school together and during that time I thought she hated me. I was wrong; she was just shy. But I came to see that her acts of love are such that, while I cannot claim absolute certainty now or about the future, I have a deep faith in her love for me. We cannot ever “know” or “verify” the experience of love with the same probability as sunrise or a lab experiment, but we have faith that love is real, is what we know to be the case, is the explanation which correctly interprets certain “scientific” experience. Those who are familiar with the scientific method know that the point is not to set out to prove a theory but to attempt to disprove it. Doubt is an essential element in the advancement of science, in the pursuit of truth, and in critical thinking. As far as we know, human beings are the only creatures on the planet, perhaps in the cosmos, endowed with the privilege and responsibility to exercise reason. Once a young man said to the philosopher, Blaise Pascal, “Oh that I had your creed, then I would live your life.” Pascal replied, “let me tell you something, young man. If you will live my life, it will not be many days until you have my creed.” In other words, Pascal is saying it is easier to act your way into belief than the other way around. And when we see Thomas after the resurrection, we follow the trajectory of his faith from confusion to confession. The risen Christ, at last, confronted him in the presence of the others and together they dealt with his doubt until it gave way to affirmation. He does that for us, too. In an era when many people in power have a view of Christian faith that is very narrow and contained in a very confined context, I am grateful to be in a Church that has room for doubt and is open to questions. Those who come to us with those doubts and questions receive a genuine welcome and are lovingly embraced so that we can journey and grow together in faith, hope, and love. 
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In 2017, I visited Jacob's Well. We stood in a circle and read today’s Gospel text. John tells us what happened when the women encountered Jesus. But, as I worked with the text this week, I wondered what the story might sound like if it was told by the woman, rather than a narrator. So imagine, for a moment, that she is the one telling the story. As you listen, notice the conversation is like a chess match—each question invites the conversation to deepen. I did not go to the well that day looking for God. I went because the jar was empty. You know how life is. Morning comes, the sun climbs higher than you expect, and before long the ordinary tasks are piling up: Bread to bake; Water to draw. Work that does not ask what kind of person you are—it simply asks to be done. So I took my jar and walked the familiar road to Jacob’s well. It was the middle of the day. No shade, no breeze. I preferred it that way. If you go early in the morning, everyone is there. The conversations begin before the bucket even touches the water. People talk about crops, about marriages, about children. And sometimes about other people’s lives. My life has been the subject of those conversations. So, I go at noon. Alone. But that day there was a man sitting beside the well. At first, I thought he must be a traveler resting his feet. The dust on his robe said he had come a long way. But when I looked more closely, I saw something else. He was a Judean. Now you have to understand something about that. Judeans and Samaritans do not usually share wells, cups, or conversations. We have our mountain, they have their temple, and between those two places lies a long history of arguments. So I lowered my eyes and went about my work. If I kept quiet, perhaps he would too. But then he spoke. “Give me a drink.” I looked up. Surely, I had misunderstood. “You are a Judean,” I said, “and I am a woman of Samaria. How is it that you ask me for a drink?” He did not apologize. He did not withdraw the request. Instead, he said something even more strange. “If you knew the gift of God,” he said, “and who it is that is saying to you, ‘Give me a drink,’ you would have asked him, and he would have given you living water.” Now I have drawn water from that well since I was a kid. My parents did. My grandparents did. The well is deep, and the water is good, but no one draws it without a rope and a jar. I looked at his empty hands. “Sir, you have no bucket, and the well is deep. Where do you get this living water? Are you greater than our ancestor Jacob, who gave us the well?” He did not laugh at my question. “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again. But those who drink the water I give will never thirst. The water I give will become a spring inside you, giving eternal life.” A spring inside me? That was a bold claim. And if it was true, it would change everything. “Sir, give me this water, so that I may never be thirsty or have to keep coming here to draw water.” Then he did something unexpected. He said, “Go call your husband.” Now that is the moment when most people begin telling my story as if it were only about my past. I answered him honestly. “I have no husband.” And he looked at me—not the way people in town look when they think they already know who you are. He looked at me as if he could see the whole of my life at once. “You are right,” he said. “You have had five husbands, and the one you have now is not your husband.” He said it plainly. No accusation. Just truth. This man knew my story. All of it. And yet he was still speaking to me. “Sir, I see that you are a prophet.” And if he was a prophet, then there was a question I had always wondered about: “Our ancestors worshiped on this mountain,” I said, “But you Judeans say that the place where people must worship is in Jerusalem.” I still don’t fully understand his answer. But I remember the way he said it—as if the world we thought we understood was already passing away: “The hour is coming,” he said, “when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. The true worshipers will worship in spirit and truth.” Not here. Not there. Something larger. I thought of the promise our people had always carried. “I know that Messiah is coming,” I told him. “When he comes, he will proclaim all things to us.” And then he said it. “I am he.” Right there beside the well….in the middle of my ordinary day. In that moment the world shifted. The God our ancestors argued about on mountains and in temples was not far away at all. He was sitting beside me, asking for a drink. About that time his disciples came back from town. They looked surprised to see him talking to me, though none of them said a word. But by then I had forgotten why I came. Somewhere beside the well my jar was still sitting on the ground. Because suddenly the water I came for no longer seemed like the most important thing in the world. I ran back to town….to the same people who gossiped about me. “Come and see a man who told me everything I have ever done! Can he be the Messiah?” They came. Many believed because of my testimony. But later they said something even better. “It is no longer because of your testimony that we believe,” they told me. “Now we have heard for ourselves.” And that is how encounter works. You come to the well carrying whatever jar life has given you—your history, your reputation, the ordinary work of your days, the burdens that seem overwhelming… And Christ meets you there. He speaks your truth. He offers living water. And before you know it, the jar that once defined your life is sitting forgotten beside the well. Because the water you were looking for is no longer something you carry in your hands. It has become a spring within you. God is alive. God is among us. God is here. God is now. Come and see.
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